Ever wondered why things happen good and bad life is very interseting and very consuming. My child hood was fairly horrific but why does it haunt so much at this stage life is so weird. Having someone near always some how soothes those nightmares. But why cant I just forget why cant I love life today is life worth while with so much pain so many memories so many hurts. Cant trust cant except cant forgive cant think cant live why? Whats happening who really cares look after your own life just go and dissappear. No one really knows how to help or do they really care once your gone your gone life carries on some saddness for a while but a new life begins IM THINKING or going mad.